New Beginnings
If you’ve been through a divorce you can probably relate with this: You not only lose your wife/husband, you lose several other things. Most of it is material like money and possessions.
But you can also lose relationships. As a couple, we went out and got together with other couples. Now that I was no longer a “couple” I ended up losing ALL the “Friends” and the relationships that went along with them. Now, most of these “friends” were people that my ex-wife knew before I met her.
There was one or two that I knew before we got married. Bottom line…I lost them all. It’s like when I got divorced all the friends and relationships that went along with them also got divorced. No worries. I was still young. We didn’t have kids. Hitting the reset button was going to be no problem.
I Had It Made
I ended up with the house in the divorce. She got all the cash. My commute to work was a whopping five miles which took me less than 10 minutes one way. I didn’t have any debts and I was starting fresh.
Although at the time I was a little depressed because I felt like a fish out of water for the most part, looking back it was pretty obvious that I had it made. I was back in sales selling cars but my heart and soul weren’t feeling it.
I was working in a good store and I liked the people that I was working with but truth be told I hated it. I could have done pretty much whatever I wanted to do at that point but I didn’t know what I wanted to do with my life.
The car business was no longer a passion for me. It was a mindless going nowhere waste of time for me. But, I was making a paycheck and I didn’t know what else to do so I was content on staying put.
Lost in Space
At 38 years old I felt like I was “Lost in space.” So, what are you going to do with the rest of your life Big Boy?” I asked that question over and over and never got an answer. However, I soon learned that a “no answer” was an answer in and of itself. I wanted a different life outside the car business.
I wanted to do something else, but I just didn’t know what. I looked at other possible options while I was in the car business but I wasn’t good at taking a risk and making decisions so I stayed put.
Conclusion
1996 was a year of transition. It was bittersweet. It was bitter because of the black eye of the divorce. It was sweet because I was free to start fresh. However, because I had this gnawing feeling in my gut about what I wanted to do with my life I had that anxious feeling of uncertainty.
Little did I know that God had me right where he wanted me. If I had a desire and knew what I wanted I would have pulled the plug on the car business and left the store I was working at in quick order. But since I had no idea what that was I figured I’d stay put until I figured it out. As 1996 came to an end in 1997 I would meet “The One.”
